Blake Bivens, a pitcher for the Tampa Bay Rays, is leaning on God amid his grief in the wake of his family’s passing. Instead of questioning God for their deaths, he continued to exalt God and thanked God for his wonderful family. He also held to the hope that he will reunite with his family in heaven one day.
Bivens lost his wife Emily, their baby boy Cullen and his mother-in-law Joan in a tragic homicide in Virginia in the hands of his brother-in-law. He was on the road when he learned about their deaths. Two days after the tragedy, he poured out his emotions and also praised God.
“My heart was turned to ash. My life as I knew it is destroyed. The pain my family and I feel is unbearable and cannot be put into words. I shake and tremble at the thought of our future without them,” he said of the tragedy on Instagram.
Despite the tragedy, Bivens never wavered in his faith in God and belief that everything happens for a reason. He believes that now Emily, Cullen, and Joan are in Heaven. He never forgot to thank those who shared their words of comfort and even thanked God for blessing him with “the most wonderful family in the world” and thanked God for letting him love Emily and Cullen. Biven also put his future in the hands of God
“I’m not sure what is next for me, but I do know God has a plan even though I can’t see it,” he said.
Two days ago my heart was turned to ash. My life as I knew it is destroyed. The pain my family and I feel is unbearable and cannot be put into words. I shake and tremble at the thought of our future without them. Emily, my sweetheart, you are the best wife and mother this world has ever seen. You made me into the man I am today and you loved me with all of my flaws. You brought our precious baby boy into this world and made our family complete. Your love and kindness changed countless lives, including mine. My sweet little boy, dada loves you so much! I can’t breathe without you here. I finally understood what love was when you were born and I would have done anything for you. You have changed my life forever, you are my reason why. I long to hold the both of you again in heaven. I’m so glad you are with all your Great-grandmothers now, I know they are eating you up. This earth did not deserve either of you; you were just too wonderful to comprehend. Joan you were the best mother-in-law anyone could ask for. You loved your family more than anyone I’ve ever seen. You raised the most wonderful girl in the world. I’m so glad y’all are still together. You were the best Nana this world has ever seen and I will never forget you. Skip you are a wonderful father and grandfather. We will get through this together as a family. We will not let the devil win! Thank you God for giving me the most wonderful family in the world! I’ve been blessed beyond belief. Thank you to all my family and friends who have reached out to me during this time of sorrow. Thank you @raysbaseball @biscuitbaseball for your support through everything. I am comforted by all the messages and well wishes. I’m not sure what is next for me, but I do know God has a plan even though I can’t see it.
51k Likes, 5,775 Comments – Blake Bivens (@blakebbins) on Instagram: “Two days ago my heart was turned to ash. My life as I knew it is destroyed. The pain my family and…”
Now, a month after his family’s death, Biven continues to thank God for the outpouring of love and support and for keeping him strong. Every time he is reminded of his family’s death, he is reminded of what Paul said in Thessalonians 4:13-14 about Jesus’ death and resurrection. He keeps the passage close to his heart as a promise that he will reunite with his family in Heaven.
“For me this is not the end but only a brief interruption. One day soon we will have a magnificent reunion and all of us will be with the Lord forever. Until then I will press on to the ultimate goal of spending eternity in Heaven,” Biven wrote along photos of Emily and Cullen.
It’s been a month since both of you went home to Paradise to be with Jesus. I spend most of my time imagining what both of you are seeing and experiencing. As my tears fall, I remind myself of what the apostle Paul said in first Thessalonians 4:13-14 NIV “Brothers and sisters we do not want you to be on uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him”. For me this is not the end but only a brief interruption. One day soon we will have a magnificent reunion and all of us will be with the Lord forever. Until then I will press on to the ultimate goal of spending eternity in Heaven. My family and I would like to thank everyone across this country who has prayed for us and sent words of encouragement our way. I also want to thank the baseball community; The love and compassion we have felt has been unbelievable. It truly feels like we are one big family. Thank you @ourbaseballlife for everything you have done to support us during this time. I also want to thank the @raysbaseball for their continuous support through all this.
6,184 Likes, 389 Comments – Blake Bivens (@blakebbins) on Instagram: “It’s been a month since both of you went home to Paradise to be with Jesus. I spend most of my time…”
Death is never certain and sometimes in the midst of the mourning, we tend to blame God and question him for taking our loved ones away from us. Our judgment becomes clouded by our emotions. It is rare to witness anyone going through grief still finds God in the darkness. It takes strong faith and one which Bivens has.
Uploaded by WSLS 10 on 2019-08-29.